After the Turing obsession

(Listen to Kendrick Lamar - Watch the Party Die while reading this for the best experience!)

My Turing obsession truly "died down" in around February 2026. Other obsessions and dwellings and false perceptions fell afterwards. By March 2026 I started putting myself back together (maybe the atomoxetine is part of it). 2023-24 me would go insane if you told this to him.

I started reading more, studying more and better, being more willing to try new things, and having more fun working on Turing's Antalyakart EX. I started to not be afraid of more challenging material. Honestly, I should just list out all the benefits and abilities I got after the death of the obsession.

List of things that happened after the death of the obsession

• Plus with the atomoxetine kicking in, I started to study more and better
• I started reading more, and being more willing to engage with books about different topics
• I slowly started trying out new activities and hobbies (like game development and composing) and picking some old hobbies back up
• I started working on my comics more, especially Turing's Antalyakart EX, and started having more fun making them
• My tolerance for criticism increased (atomoxetine could also be involved with that; there's something called "rejection sensitive dysphoria" and apparently it's common among people with ADHD, some people even think that it's an ADHD symptom but that's unconfirmed, maybe it was that)
• I started engaging with more challenging material and looking at things more critically (Strangely. I'd expect myself to be involved in easier stuff post-obsession because the Turing obsession would often make myself think that I'm better at something than I really am, if you know what I mean.)
• I became more willing to learn about different fields and topics
• I became able to assess myself more fairly, and became more self-aware in general (parts of it are therapy, atomoxetine, and journaling, to be honest)
• I started being less ashamed of myself, especially when indulging in interests and fields and hobbies "outside Turing's range"

Honestly, I started just... doing my own thing. Doing things I like to do and making things I enjoy making.

It is said that stanning a celebrity smoothens your brain. I'm not sure how true that is, but what I'm sure about is that I have wasted a lot of years due to my obsession over and idolization of Alan Turing, and I am way behind in culture, studies, and literature, and need to catch up. I hope I can do so.